habit

its becoming a habit..

i fell..

i became happy for a while..

then the hurt of seeing him with another..

i move on to forget..

and i fell again..

happiness that seems to last..

only to realize that it was just a dream..

he already has someone in his heart..

so i'm trying again to move on..

and so the cycle.. a habit..

questions.. that my sane mind don't want to entertain..

but in a time like this.. i can't help myself..

i only want one thing.. and yet, i can't seem to have a hold of it.. :(